Friday, November 14, 2003
Windy fall day
Away from the trouble
Away from myself
Whisper to me wind
Where to find calmness
Where do I find it,
Oh nature’s Conductor
You know of peacefulness
Please share your secret
Confide it in me
Watch the tree
How it stands strong
Letting its’ branches
Blow as they please
Like a tree I shall be
Firm in conviction
Yet flowing with the breeze
Firmly set, yet bearing the wind
Thursday, November 13, 2003
I wonder what nighttime feedings will be like. Will she breastfeed? What would it be like to breastfeed two? I remember changing 10 to 15 diapers a day with one. Does that mean 20 to 30 diapers a day for two? (I hope she has money invested in one of the diaper-producing companies.)
I have offered to watch the babies for her sometime, so she can get out or get some rest. I'm sure she'll have relatives there for the first few weeks helping out. After that she'll probably be on her own. I hope she will take me up on my offer.
Only another mom can understand how it is to feel trapped by your children. And while I love my children very much, there are times when I need to be away from them. I know she will feel that way sometime, and I hope I can be there to help her out.
Congratulations, Lisa! You are going to be a great mommy!
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
What would I do if I won a sizable amount of money? Certainly the first thing I would do is set up a few worthy causes with charitable trust funds. Among those causes would be my church, the Billy Graham Evangelical Association, World Vision, ELIC, ACLJ, and others that I'm sure I'm missing. Then, after paying off my debt, giving some away to my family, and setting up my childrens' college funds, I would pray about what God wants me to do next.
God created us to be stewards of His creation. In some way the vocation God gives us fulfills this obligation to God. It gives us a sense of fulfilling purpose, which is a need God has given us. Praying to God about my vocation shouldn't depend on whether or not I am independently wealthy.
I pray God that I could place my trust in You and fulfill the purpose You have for me in Your perfect plan.
Monday, November 10, 2003
I tried to sit down and relax this weekend and found it difficult. I had a list of tasks to complete and just couldn't let go. I had to get all the items checked off my list before I could take a deep breath and relax. Most days are the same, and that means going steady from the time I start my morning routine until the time I rest my head on the pillow. Yikes!
I think I need a vacation. I'd love nothing more than to have no activities planned for a given day. I'd love to sit under the shade of a beach umbrella and pass the time reading a good book. I'd love to spend a couple of days of one-on-one time with my husband, remembering what it was like when we were first married.
I don't see it happening in the foreseeable future. With the holidays approaching, our family's schedule threatens to get worse before it gets better. But I can always dream...